Last night was a horrible night for me. It was as if every bad thing going on in my life all at once caught up to me. My anxiety level was through the roof & I didn’t know how to control my feelings. I am filled with such regret because during that time I neglected to seek help from the ones who love me, more specifically my boyfriend. And for that I am truly sorry. I realized that there are in fact people that care about me more than I previously known and I am truly thankful for them. It is going to be hard to move on from last night because it is not something easily forgotten but I just hope that I still have the same support system to help me along the way. I am so much better now than I was last night and I am going to try my hardest to find ways to prevent it from happening again.. I am not the C’aria that everyone thought they knew and I apologize for keeping a side of me hidden.. It was because of embarrassement that I did but now I am filled with sorrow for doing so. I kept the biggest secret from the love of my life and it had a negative impact on our relationship.. I just hope he knows I care about him way more than I can express in words and that he is the sole reason of my existence and for that I thank him.